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Erratic Vivacity

2007-07-20T19:21:00.000-07:00

ERRATIC VIVACITY

My minds always circling
My sentiments always struggling
Always trying to make the right thing

Everybody has his Achilles' heel
Even I has its own
But who cares…
I don’t live the life
The way others do…
I demand what I want
I have what you can’t take

But..
Sometimes I like this
And most of the time I like that
I’m like that yesterday
But now I’m like this…

I know someday
I will change
Its either in good or in worst
Nobody can tell
Even I cant proved
That in some time
Everything will be apparent

Vivacity is full of surprises
Whether you like it or not
You have to surpass it

Life is quite ironic
What you wanted
Will always be the tough one
And what we hate
Always keep on raining
To us

Advent of pessimism
Flight of optimism
I keep on fighting
Just to gain some luck
But winds always
Blow it away
And I ended into a bad luck

I walk, I search, I struggle
To find and to be
What I intended to be

I fall, I was hurt, I loose hope
But I never give up
Unless he will ask me to.

2007-07-07T05:13:00.000-07:00

/ when your angry/
/ depressed of even frustrated
/ always try to zip your lips /

/ you will never notice /
/ that you've left /
/ the words that makes/
/ a person feels so down /

/ you will never know /
/ that you've said /
/ the most hurtful words /
/ that shatters their hearts /
/ into pieces /

/ because one thing is for sure /

/ there is no amount /
/ of apology /
/ to undo the pain /
/ you've just caused /
~Ms.Ignacio~

Liers; go to hell

2007-06-30T04:29:00.000-07:00

LIAR; GO TO HELL

for my entire life
i've hated all person
who lies without reasonable reason
i've hated them
for not being true
i consider them
as a trashed
they must be thorn
like a paper and burned
like a coal
dishonest people
should not exist
they must be
exiled in this world
they dont have the right
because they destroys one's life
and they dont have the space
in this world
because they do tricks
that blind us to their doings
liers are two sided mask
on the one side
they are sort
but on the other
they are evil
liers...
go to hell

Trapped

2007-06-29T06:25:00.000-07:00

Laying on my bed
Trying to forget
Staring at the ceiling
And i keep on wondering
When will i stop thinking?

i never think this way
i should not care
i must forget
i must escape
And I will

i never thought of this in the first place
i don’t care others belief
Because all i know
i will never ever felt this

My philosophy will never change
Whatever might come to pass
There’s no reason
to chase the past

I’m hefty enough
I’m bold to face the veracity
i don’t care what the minds think
i do not have affection for it
i do not have the sentiments
Like those who believe on it
But i do have the heart
That makes me to freak out

I didn’t perceive
That something is happening
Something is changing
That makes me to be wary

Now I know I was trapped
In a world where in Neither the door nor the window
is hard to find

I was trapped
It felt like
i was in an endless path

…. Is there still a way out?

Within

2007-06-29T06:23:00.000-07:00

/ they always used to see me laughing /

/ making jokes and creating silly things /

/ they simmed to think /

/ that i'm the kind of person /

/ who has no predicament at all /

/ but if you just knew the real me /

/ like those people /

/ who knows me inside out /

/ maybe you'll say /

/ what they used to descibe me /

" ohh! she's one of the persons who brightens

my day even though she cannot brighten up her own "

~ AlaceGin ~

Anti-Love

2007-06-29T06:21:00.000-07:00

/ i really dont believe in love /

/but curiosity surrounds me /

/ i've tried to listen, to feel and to obeserve /

/ but still i dont believe on it /

/ but there is one thing ican only impart/

/ and it is this-/

/in loving u should not give everthing /

/ nor expect too much /

/that in the end you have come to realize /

/love is nothing /

/ but DESTRUCTION /

"VOW"

2007-06-29T06:20:00.000-07:00

/ very powerful word /
/ it can build a friendship /
/ but it can destroy /
/ a strong relationship /
/ if you keep it /
/ good things will happen /
/ but one'z youve broke it /
/ accept the consequences /
/ and expect the pain /
/ once youve say it /
/ you cant just pull it /
/ once youve say it /
/ do it and mean it /

tRY To Listen

2007-06-29T06:18:00.000-07:00

when you meet people who speaks alot /
/ dont hate them /
/ instead appreciate what they are doing /

/ at least now you know /
/ that they trust you // because they tell everything
// their hearts wanted to /

/ than to those people who are /
/ silent and never reveals // what on their heart and mind /

/ cuz // its easier to listen /
/ than to /
/ read one's mind /

Do Love Exist???

2007-06-29T06:16:00.000-07:00

/ do you honestly believe /
/ that love really exist? /
/ they said that love is the most worth it thing /
/ that happens to once life /

/ they said it is between happiness and loneliness /

/ ohhh c'mon /

/ wake up and face the reality /
/ theres no such thing as love /
/ that mix up your boring life with glee /

/ it is just one of the mind works /
/ and maybe because of those untrue /
/ romantic movies w/c make us believe on it /

/ are you honestly convince by the phrase /
/ i love you with all of my heart and soul /
/ dHuH // sometimes people in this world are so exaggerated /

/ simply love is just a word /
/ cuz its meaning does not exist /
/ scientifically /
/ nobody can proves it /

2007-06-29T06:15:00.000-07:00

Feelings For Him

The audience just applaud because of the scene. And at the backstage Nicole was wondering“Why did he kiss me? Is it part of the script? Is there a part in the script that I haven’t read? But no! Professor Fletcher lends the original copy of the script, or is it”…. But before she can continue those wonderings Jaymie call her attention.“Hey Nicole”, said Jaymie“Oh hi Jaymie, by the way congratulation you really did a very good part said NicoleMaybe you mean we did a very good part said Jaymie and you know you really look different during the play”“ I just did what I should do and I just followed what professor Fletcher said, said Nicole.Jymie and Nicole were having a good time discussing about their play that’s why the didn’t notice that it was already midnight. Until the Jay walk in…..“Aren’t the two of you going to go home yet? He said then Nicole look at her watch and said “Oh yeah1 its already past 12, I think we should go Jaymie“okay then, bye Nicole and bye Jay bid Jaymie while waving her hands.While Nicole was putting all her things into her bag… ahhhh Nicole.. But Nicole snob him. Jay repeated calling her until 5th time.Nico…. But before Jay could complete her name…What? Said Nicole in aloud voice, you keep on calling my name but your not saying anything!!!“ oh I’m sorry then, said Jay, ahhh…. I was just wondering if I could take you home”?“why should I let you take me home? Isn’t it that you already embarrassed me in front of your friends? Said Nicole“Look Nicole I didn’t......” and why are you talking tom me? And you make me look like a fool in front of them!!! And… but before Nicole could continue Jay immediately interrupt her“Nicole… said Jay in a loud voice”“ and now your shouting at me” said Nicole and the she started walking outside to the parking lot.“ oh common Nicole let me take you home, its just a ride anyway” said Jay. But Nicole continue walking. “ if I were you ill make sure for my safetiness….“meaning? Said Nicole“I mean ahhh… if you just lat me take you home you have accompany. You’re going home alone. And what if, if there’s a rapist or a killer ..ahhh…a monster or a zombie in your way! No one will help you. And beside I know that you are already tired and if you will let me take you home you will not walk in going home….Nicole stoped and face Jay with an angry look. “ you think ill buy those stupid reasons? And why should I walk in going hom? Cant you see have my car, said Nicole pointing on a vacant parking spaceNicole was shocked when she saw that the parking space was vacant. “Where did my car go? It was supposed to be here!” said Nicole in panic. “Whoah…!!! Don’t be panic, maybe you don’t really have a car” said Jay. Nicole got mad and she didn’t know what to do because the car given by his father was just car napped. Then suddenly Nicole collapsed. Jay’s eyes was wide-opened and then he rushed to Nicole and carry her up to his car. Jay was also in panic. He didn’t know what to do.One and a half hour had had passed but still Nicole was unconscious. Jay mildly snap Nicole hoping that it would make Nicole wake up.“Oh common Nicole what’s happening to you!...“Aahhh… what are you doing?” said Nicole because Jay was mildly slapping her. Jay needs to go near and infront of her. “Get off me you manic,” said Nicole in a sarcastic voice.“Wait… wait… wait… I’m not doing anything” said Jay.Jay was telling to Nicole what happened to her and he told her that her car was car napped and he was just trying to wake her up and she got panic. He also explained to her why he’s infront of her.When Nicole was freshened her mind she apologize to Jay and didn’t mean to say it. So Jay had a chance to ask her if maybe she could take her home. Because Nicole’s car was car napped and she’s very tired, Nicole has no choice but to have a ride with him and besides, thanks to Jay nothing bad had happened.Nicole got home safely. When she’s already on her room she immediately took her medicine and went to bed.New day has come, the theatrical drama were already over so there’s no practice anymore. Nicole thought the she will only see Jay frequently.Everybody was already in their classroom. Their teacher announces that there will be two new classmates that will arrive today. One have just transferred from the other section and the other one came from Dellwood High said the teacher. “So ahhhhmmm… they are already outside.“Okey class here are your new classmates, first is Mr. Hutson. Please you may introduce yourself.”Then every girls – the classroom were twinkling their eyes, imagining how lucky they are being with this good looking guy.“Ehemmeh.. I’m Justine Bryan Hutson, I have juts transferred from Dellwood High… I know you are wondering why I transferred here in your school… you see I’m not contented on the education that they offer in my former school. I have known that Lyceum of Sulpice is a school with a higher standard. So I think this school suites me.”“Whoaahhhh”… said the group of girls in the class.“Nice Speech said Nicole to Jaymie. I was just thinking how many weeks did he memorize that…Nicole and Jaymie was having a good time murmuring about this guy. And they keep on looking at him and after that they laugh so what an insult to this guy.The teacher announces that they should be getting ready for their Spring Masquerade ball, a traditional school dance. And then the bell rang and all the students went out of their classroom.The tenth month already dies and every body was talking about their spring masquerade ball. Justine and Nicole was getting along very well, because Justine always help Nicole in her homework. On the part of Jay he is very good in music. He knows everything in terms of music, while Nicole is also good in some other aspects, especially in drama.One time the teacher discussed about their up coming project and their partners. Jaymie and Nicole already agreed that they will be partners for their upcoming projects.“Okay then, I’ll just go to your house Jaymie for us to start our project”, said Nicole.“Okey, I’ll juts wait for you at 2 p.m. and… but before Jaymie could continue the teacher said that she be the one that will appoint who will be their partners.“Professor… the…”“And you will be…”“the project was very…”“Required to report all what you did to your projects…”“But professor…”Justine finds a vacant chair but he preferred to sit on the chair beside Nicole. And to feedbacks all what they said just stare at them and said “According to my research this school was intended only for students with brains,” said Justine to Nicole and Jaymie.“Oooooppps…” said Jaymie to Nicole. I think we hit him.Then the teacher called the second classmate.“Okey.. Ahmmm. Mr. Boutaun.When their teacher announces their new classmate, Nicole was surprise because she didn’t expected that it was Jay. Jay entered to the room he was also surprised when he saw Nicole.. he didn’t expected that they will be classmates. When Nicole saw that Jay is looking at her also immediately put her hands on her face coz she’s very shy of what she did last night.Mr. Boutaun you may now find your sit, said professor Fletcher. The only vacant sit is at the back of Nicole’s chair. Nicole didn’t notice that Jay was already approaching for his chair and then Jay stops besides her and said “Hey, why are you covering your face?”“Nicole was shocked and said “Oh!... I was just ahhh…”“Because you were just saw me?”Nicole didn’t know what to say because Jay had just say what’s in her mind, and she just said “I think you’re too much confident on what you are talking about.“No but young lady. I have already said the values and I have already make the list and here they are,” the teacher get the list of partners in her desks.“Mr. Hutson and Ms. Smith”, Mr. Harriet and Ms. Dally, Mr. Emiarh and Ms. Esine” and after calling several names the teacher announces the name of Jay and Nicole.“Mr. Boultaun this project will be your requirement, no project no Spring party. And I wish you will cooperate with Ms. Forster… and Ms. Forster just report to me if Mr. Boutaun is not cooperating and I’ll just erase his name in the party guest.Nicole told Jay that they needed to start their project so that they can passed it earlier than the deadline. So they have decided that they will do it on Wednesday morning during their vacant time at the library.On the part of Justine he was having a hard time to do their project because Jaymie was not cooperating very much and instead of helping him she’s just disturbing him he cannot concentrate on it.At the library Nicole and Jay was having a good job on their project. Nicole was happy for the time that his with Jay. But she didn’t want it because she must not fell in love to somebody because she doesn’t want to hurt them.When Nicole and Jay were having a break during their work Jay rendered a song for Nicole and Nicole was enjoying because Jay had a good voice. From that time Nicole felt a weird feelings, a feelings that she never feed the feelings that she were afraid of.While Nicole was eating her lunch in the canteen alone, Justine showed up and sit in front of Nicole.“Hi Nicole, would you mind if I ask you something?” said Justine.“Oh it’s okey, go on,” said Nicole.Justine didn’t know how to start that’s why he just said what he really felt for her, that he was deeply attracted to her. After he said what he feels he immediately left. Nicole didn’t expect it alls she know is that she was only a good friend for him, she never imagined that he had a feelings for her.Until that time Nicole noticed that Justine was ignoring her. That’s why on their classroom Nicole approached him and asked him if he’s avoiding her. But Justine just said that he’s just too busy with their project.“Okey then, I hope that’s true” said Nicole then she turn back but after she could took a step Justine hold her hand and Jay had just entered the room then Justine said “Nicole wait, the truth is I’m not busy anyway, I was just.. I just thought… last week at the canteen.“Oh! That’s the reason, it’s nothing, I am not angry with you!”“Really? Well Nicole, I have something to asked, if you would mind. Ahhhmm… Nicole can I take… can I take you…“Hi Nicole, hows your project? Already done? Asked Jaymie… Nicole walks away to Justine and approach Jaymie and they begin chatting.After seven weeks…Everybody was very busy for the Spring Mascarade Party, almost all department stores were full of L.S. students even Jaymie and Nicole was there looking for their dress that suits them.After how many minutes Jaymie had already find one, but Nicole still didn’t find a dress and Nicole was already tired and her head was aching again.“Jaymie let’s just go home, we only have three hours left before the party starts, we have to be getting ready right now” said Nicole.“But you haven’t find a dress yet” said Jaymie.“I’ll just wear my old dress beside I can make my old dress to a newer one you know” said Nicole with a convincing smile.When Nicole was already in their house, she opened the door to her room and found a mannequin wearing an elegant purplish dress. Nicole was surprised, she approached the mannequin and she saw a tiny parchment that pins in front of the dress, she opened it and read the two words “Wear Me” Nicole was very excited to wear it, but she’s not sure if she’s still going, but she still took a bath and wear the dress. She face the mirror, she’s very, very beautiful, she looked again but the reflection was blur, Nicole’s head was badly aching, and all she can see was a circling and blur images. Nicole took one step and call for help but she just cant then suddenly… she fell to the floor. .............. TO BE CONTINUED..

2007-06-29T06:12:00.000-07:00

/its hard to hear from the person/

/who is close to you/

/ that they don't trust you/

/promises are big deal/

/once i say it i mean it/

/even though how serious you are/

/they cant help to trust you /

/no matter how hard you try /

/who knows//that in the first place/.

/........they never trusted you at all/

2007-06-29T06:09:00.002-07:00

Have you ever realized
the purpose of lies?

it creates betrayal
destroy the trust
creates conflict

and its like
an undestroyable
weapon the cuts
our hearts
into pieces

and lastly
the main purpose
of its existence
is...

it opens our eyes
and closes our hearts

thats why
people live
in this world
by their
eyes closed

because they
aren't brave enough
to fight the pain
that makes them
almost die

2007-06-29T06:09:00.001-07:00

Once I keep it I'll do it .......

Freedom from sore

2007-06-29T06:05:00.000-07:00

tears, regrets, hatreds

At last have fade

for a simple idea that i made

how come i didnt think of in the first place

maybe its not worth it that time

when the time has come

i thought i'll finished

another stage of my lifelike how i've end

the first chapter of my life

when days had passed

i was severly losing hope

cuz all i know theres no way

for me to accomplished this crisis anymore

one time when i was thinking

i dont know!!..it just pops to mind

the idea that change my whole life

the idea that brings back

the the bliss in my cycle

i wrote a very simple epistle

but it contains every single happenings

that causes my soreness

an epistle that helps me release

all my abhorrence

at last i've accomplish

another predicament

that ties my sentiment

A FREEDOM FROM SORE

Last flight out

2007-06-29T06:04:00.000-07:00

Im so scared that you will seeAll the weakness inside of meIm so scared of letting goThat the pain I feel will showOhhI know you want to hear me speakBut im afraid that if I start toThat I'll never stop I want to you knowYou belong in my lifeI love the hopeI see in your eyesFor you I would flyAt least I would tryFor you I'll takeThe last flight out Im afriad that you will leaveAs my secrets have been revealedohhIn my dreams you'll always stay(you'll always stay)Every breathing moment from nowI know you wan tot hear me speakBut im afraid that if I start toThat I'll never stop I want you to knowYou belong in my lifeI love the hopeI see in your eyesFor you I would flyAt least I would tryFor you I'll takeThe last flight out I cannot hold back the truth no moreI let you wait too long(wait to long)Although its hardIt scares me soA life without you scares me more(scares me more) For you I would flyAt least I would tryFor you I'll takeThe last flight out I want you to knowYou belong in my lifeI love the hopeI see in your eyesFor you I would flyAt least I would tryFor you I'll takeThe last flight out

Insensitivity

2007-06-29T06:01:00.000-07:00

You’re responsible, smart and kind

You’re wholesome, pretty and friendly

In the outside that’s you

In the insideIs it really you?

You’ve shown everybody your compassion

You’ve make them feel your consideration

In every trials they encounter

You make them believe

In something that is not true

You tell them you cared

But honestly you never cared

You can help without saying it out loud

It just shows your mean desire

Sometimes I can’t avoid thinking

That you cared not for the others

But only for yourself

You wanted to help

Not because you wanted to ease their pains

But to show them only that you cared

But deep insideIts not your desire to aid

But you’re desire to fake

You don’t need to pretend

Just to tell them that you seraph

Who will always there in their path

Why don’t you just be yourself?

And avoid playing with them

Don’t you know?

You’re becoming iniquitous

Just to attain your own pleasures

You’re just showing them

You’re INSENSITIVITY

Silent Regrets

2007-06-29T05:57:00.000-07:00

feb97

One time you’ve asked me

One time you talk to me

One time you apologized to me

And many times I provide you

Forgiving is said to be chances

Chances are said to be doubt

Doubt are said to be untrue

Being untrue are said to be conflict

Chances are crumbling

Apology is waiting

Tears are ready to sink

Sentiments are bidding

You’ve heard the words

you wanted to be heard

You’ve fix your dilemma

You’ve said what you sought

You’ve got what you want

How about me?

Second thought?

I never think of it

Forgiving?

I always knew it

Regrets?

I never expect it

As period goes by

My regrets keep passing my mind

Wanted to turn back time

And stop on that daylight time

Just to withdraw everything I have said

If I could just turn back time

Maybe regrets are out of my mind right now

Agonizing regrets wouldn’t be on my mind

Silent regrets wouldn’t be dug

to my mind

Silent Aisle

2007-06-29T05:55:00.000-07:00

feelings For Her

two weeks before the opening of school everybody was now enjoying themselves, going on a picnic, tours and even watching concert including the students of L.S. (Lyceum of Sulpice).Ryan and Nicole students of L.S. were siblings. Ryan was grounded because of an incident.“You can’t go out Ryan,” his mom said.“Why I can’t? Why are you doing this?” he said.“Because I said so and the opening of schools is near so you have to stay home” said her/his mom,” you know what you’re ruined my lifer” said Ryan then he walked out and slammed the door.On Ryan’s room Nicole enter “What did they say?” she said.I’m grounded replied Ryan.“What???!!!What are we going to do now?” asked Nicole“What do you mean?” said RyanI’ve got the tickets to the concert we have to go said Nicole“Oh men! Now that I’m grounded?” said Ryan“We have to sneak out!” said NicoleRyan and Nicole took the car outside the garage so that their parents will not hear them went out. When, there are already at the concert both of them are having fun, both of them are jumping while singing. When Nicole is on her way to the comfort room a good looking guy bumped on her and he was so boastful, instead of apologizing he asked her name because who would not notice the charming face of Nicole, almost all the guys in their town admire her, but Nicole didn’t give her name to the guy because she’s mad of his boastfulness, but he just forget it because he wanted to enjoy and she doesn’t want that her brother will notice that she’s mad.On the way home Ryan and Nicole were reminiscing what they did on the concert until then Nicole saw a huge track light at the side of Ryan……When Nicole woke up she’s already in a hospital, beside her is her mom crying while her father was having a conversation with the doctor. The doctor said to his father that Nicole’s brain was damaged because of the impact of the truck that hits their car, so she needs to undergo on treatments.Ryan died because a drunk driver hit the red light. But Nicole keeps on blaming herself.“Mom I can’t go to school, I can’t go without Ryan” Nicole saidBut her mom said “to Nicole, you have to go to school and continue your studies, that’s what Ryan wants you to do” Both of them are now crying.Nicole went to school and continued her studies but it’s hard for her to pay attention in classes because she always thinks of Ryan and keeps on blaming herself.It’s Saturday and Nicole was rushing to go to school for the theatrical drama rehearsal and suddenly a guy bumped at her, the same guy who bump at her during the concert. The good looking guy immediately picks up Nicole’s script and said “Theatrical drama script” Looking at Nicole. This guy didn’t notice that she’s the girl he bump on the concert and while looking at Nicole he wanted to laugh because of Nicole’s outfit and it’s the first time for him to saw a girl wearing long sleeve, long skirt with eyeglasses. Because of sadness Nicole didn’t mind what she wears or what she looks like, before, she always go with fashion and instead of wearing eyeglasses she wears sunglasses but now she looks like “manang” on her outfit.“What’s the problem with that? Don’t I deserve to be on a drama? Nicole said raising her eyebrow“A bit like that guy said”While on the stage the drama teacher Professor Fletcher said “everyone please lend me your ears” then all of them took their seats.“Jay Ian Boultaun?” said Miss Fletcher“Here” said the good looking guy, I expect a lot from you Mr. Boultaun said Miss Fletcher and Jay just nod his head; you will be playing as Justine.“Jaymie Smith? And a girl on a mini skirt raises her hand. Okay, you will be playing Elisabethe, the leading lady of Justine… wwoooooo… a group of guy at the back teased Jay because her leading lady is beautiful and sexy, but she’s not Jay’s type. And after calling the names of the other cast professor Fletcher said “and lastly Sharpy Nicole Forster, are you here? “Yes ma’am said Nicole” “you will portray the mystery lady.During the practice Nicole was doing well also with Jaymie, at that time Nicole and Jaymie become friends. Jay was always calling his attention because he’s poor in acting and he still didn’t memorize his lines. Professor Fletcher approached Nicole and she whispers something to her and Nicole nodded.“Mr. Boultaun I want you to come back here tomorrow and… But before she continues Jay interrupted and said “what?” and looks angry.“Mr. Boultaun, or maybe you just wanted to drop on my subject?”“Oh it’s nothing” he said feeling embarrassed.“As I was saying, you have to come back here tomorrow and Ms. Forster will help you to memorize your lines and teach you how to act properly.On the next day Jay was waiting for how many hours but no Nicole came up.On their corridor Jay and his group were jamming. “So how’s your acting Jay?” asked Mike. “Oh… I hate it; do you know this girl Nicole Forster? She’s so weird, she even wears glasses” Glasses? Asked Mike sounding shocked, I hate girls with eyeglasses. Me too Jay. And the bad thing is professor wants me to be teaching with that disgusting girl and you know what, yesterday she didn’t standout! “What?” said the group in chorus? “That girl is really weird Jay, I mean nobody did that to you except for that girl said Mike. “Yeah” said Chris. I guess you’ve found the girl that didn’t notice me that much or maybe she just don’t want me to notice that she fancied me so much. Ooooowwwww! Teased his friends.What if, if we make a bet said Mike.“Yes a bet will test you Jay” said Chris, if you can make her as your girl, then it will prove us that you deserve to be the leader of our group.“Sure” Jay said, beside, she’s not the kind of girl that turns me down, nobody turns me down.Classes are already over, its time for their lunch break. Nicole is eating her lunch with Jaymie, and then suddenly Jay just came and sits beside Nicole and asks her why she didn’t come up during their practice. Nicole just said that her parents went out so she needs to stay home.“So maybe we can just practice in your house, beside, you’re the one who didn’t showed up” said Jay. Because its Nicole’s fault she just agree.While practicing on Nicole’s house Jay was not concentrating that’s why he cannot memorize his lines and that’s why Nicole got mad. “Will you stop playing and concentrate!” said Nicole. Bla…bla… bla… said Jay because of that Nicole got angry and walk out Jay’s foot was on the way so she fell to Jay’s lap. On that moment both of them was staring at each other and it’s like everything stops. And Jay feels something weird, a feelings that he never felt before and on that time because of their closeness they almost kissed but Nicole broke it up and said “I think its already late, lets just continue our practice next time” okay, goodnight then, said Jay.While climbing the stairs for her to go to her room, Nicole collapsed and fell from the floor. Her parents carry her into her room and call a doctor.Nicole’s classmates also Jay wondered why she’s absent for how many days. Jay’s realizes that he doesn’t want anymore to continue their bet because he feels something weird with Nicole and whatever it is she doesn’t want to talk or to think about it.Hey bro! Said Jay to his friends. What’s up, asked Mike. Jay told them that he doesn’t want to continue their bet anymore but Jay lied, instead of telling the real reason he just said “its not that I cant do it but I can’t take her attitude anymore, the way she moves, the way she talk aarrghhh! It’s like she’s my mother lecturing me, oh my God! I think I’m gonna be crazy going out with her. Whatever said Chris, it that’s what you want? But they didn’t know that Jaymie was sitting near beside them and hear all of their conversations.Days had passed when Nicole was already okay and went to school. Nobody knows what happened to her except her family and doesn’t want to tell anybody what happened to her.Hi Nicole, what happened to you? You’ve been absent for almost a eek, said Jaymie.Oh, I just suffer from headache and cold, so what did you do? When will be the theatrical drama? When will be our next practice? Nicole asked.It’s today at 2:00 pm, the theatrical drama will be 4 weeks from now, well see you later, bye… Jaymie didn’t want Nicole to be hurt, so she didn’t tell her what Jay said.During their practice Jaymie notice that Nicole was not feeling well again, she asked but Nicole says she’s okay. “Mr. Boltaun” said Professor Fletcher, I can see that you are improving, I require you to practice again with Ms. Forster. Jay can’t do anything so he just follow what professor Fletcher said but the problem is his friends must know that he’s with Nicole again or else they just laugh at him.On the corridor Jay and his friends were chatting. Nicole approaches him and said “so, see you tomorrow? In my house?” Jay replied “in your dreams”… Jay didn’t really mean to say that, but because his friends was around he just did.Nicole didn’t expect what she had heard and got angry with Jay.After 4 weeks…The theatrical drama was about to begin and still Nicole was snubbing Jay. Even Jay was having a second thought if he will talk to Nicole and ask for apology because she might not respond or shout at him.During the play Jay was surprised and can’t believe when he saw that the girl he bumped during the concert, the girl he asked for her name and the girl who caught his attention for the first time was standing right in front of him and portraying the rule of Nicole. Jay cannot believe that the girl in the concert and Nicole is only one. But Jay was wondering because the girl that he bumped during the concert was totally different to the Nicole that he met. On that time Jay was still staring at Nicole. Nicole eye’s was on Jay then suddenly Nicole again was about to lose her balance because again Jay’s foot was on her way, but instead of falling to the floor Jay immediately hold her hand and then… Jay kissed her. The audience was shocked because the scene was not on the script but they just think that it is a surprised so they just applaud.
............TO BE CONTINUED

2007-06-29T05:53:00.000-07:00

Betrayal of a friend's feelings, whether intentional or not, can rip friendship apart, and leave both feeling empty.

She hurt me so much, and the pain was too great for me to bear. Her friendship is like a shooting star floating briefly across the heavens, a moment in time that I will treasure forever.

Maybe, with time, the place where our friendship grew will blossom again. Do i try to make things right and talk to her again? I don’t know, i cant.

Until I figure that out, this AISLE is my emotional release.

A Tear Fell

2007-06-29T05:47:00.002-07:00

Every time they open such topic

i always blink my eyes

trying not fell a single droplets in my arms

i keep on avoiding answering question

cuz i know my words makes

a tear fell

Every time i think of the past

i cant avoid to smile for those unbelieveble moments

but after a while, while my memory goes further

i feel that my eyes were getting heavy

i fell that my eyes were full of waters that wanted to be free

and i cant stand it anymore

then a tear just fell

Night by night before i go to sleep

i always make a happy dreams

but i dont know why

what happen in the past always passed on my mind

but even though how hard i tried

i just cant get rid of it

then suddenly another tear fell

Now i keep on writing in this parchment

trying to release all my feelings

my emotion becoming more thinner

Everytime i move my pen and wrote a single letter

i dont know,

but a tear always fell

2007-06-29T05:47:00.001-07:00

"Like any other kind of love, friendship can be lost within our lives due to neglect or anger or, sometimes, simply circumstances. However it is lost, we often lose a part of ourselves that can never quite be recovered. "

2007-06-29T05:46:00.000-07:00

Silence is the true friend that never betrays.

~ confucius ~

Without a Purpose

2007-06-29T05:42:00.000-07:00

We've all made mistakes, especially when we were young and honestly believed that the choices we made were for the best. When I looked back on one of the most turbulent times of my life, I realize that I hurt someone who was very dear to me.BUt one things for sure she hurt me more than i hurt her....cuz she never knows...

i'm telling you now
i did a very big mistake
for not giving you a chance to speak
i walk away immidiately
cuz i thought you did it
without a purpose

but how come you never let me know
nor try to ask me the reason for avoiding you
you never cared, you never mind
thats why i thought you did it
withouth a purpose

i turn my back away from you
even glance of my eyei never showed to you
whenever i saw you i wanted to hide
cuz it makes my temper get high
cuz all i know you did it
without a purpose

they said you didnt know
the reason why i'm doing this to you
dont pretend that you didnt know
cuz from the start you already know
why i'm avoiding you cuz all i know you
did it without a purpose

But when so many years have passed, how can I go back and tell her I'm sorry?????...is it really sorry for her , or a sorry for myself that i let her know everything?

Angel in Disguise

2007-06-29T05:37:00.000-07:00

ANGEL IN DISGUISE

Weve met a long time ago,

along with your friends,

a perfect companyI saw you, you saw me...

you all saw me in some little corner

as time goes by,

we tagged along so much

we bund like not just an ordinary persons

but we bund so differently

Time flies so fast.

When trouble came to my life

a trial i've never encounter before

it was you who was there to comfort and cheer me up as well

i tusted you more that i trusted the others

i treated you as angel who came to my life

an angel with a wide wingswhich serves

as my shieldan angel with powerful feathers

which serve as my comforter

an angel who flies so fast

who leaves me so fast

all this years that had passed

i have been realized

your the one whothreated me so unfair

you've solemn not to spread the wings

that i have shared to youbut you failed

i let you keep my wings

cuz i thought your an angel

who has a word that can be trusted

an angel who set aside the word
disguisecuz i thought your the creators most precious gift

but youre just an any ordinary angel

youre just an ANGEL IN DISGUISE